What they say..

This whole blog thing is new to me, I figured in order to see progress I'd have to be able to write down what I'm feeling and when. This is sort of a way to "let my feelings out" without eating...Sort of take the place of eating. So first post.. Here goes.

They say you are what you eat.. They also say you have to feel good inside to feel good on the outside. I believe both these statements to be true.

Over the past year I've gained over 60 pounds... I'm not going to go throw out excuses or blame other people for me gaining weight. It's my own fault. No one put the food in my mouth and told me to swallow. I did it all on myself. However, food never makes me feel any better. It makes me feel worse even, maybe. I admit to being an emotional eater, I eat when I'm upset, angry, or sad. I eat to take away the pain. Of course it doesn't work and I eat more. It's a never ending cycle and I want it to end. Food has got the best of me and I'm ready to end this cycle. I'm not happy with my appearance and I'm ready for a change. However, with me change is hard and I admit it is hard to start. I just need someone to push my along when I'm starting and tell me that I'm doing well and to keep going! I need motivation.

My family went out to eat with aunt and her family last weekend.. we took some pictures and looking that them was quite depressing. I look and feel enormous and I'm tired of feeling like this.. January 1st will be the first day of the rest of my life. Let's just hope I can find my way and stick to it this time.