Well it's been a month...

Over this past month, I've learned a lot and felt better than I have in the past 6 months! I'm eating better and have my mindset where it should be. I'm hoping this next month goes just as well as January did and I continue to walk on.

This month my goal is to drink more water! I usually drink 1.5 liters a day, but I've been told that isnt enough so I'm going to try to drink 2.5-3! The more water the better I suppose! I have been drinking mostly water, only a diet soda once in awhile (read: every other week) when I go out to eat or something. Overall, it's mostly water. I do throw in a flavored water a few times (Sam's club clear water, omg soo good) but other than that it's always water.

Also, I've decided to be more positive.. so starting out I'm going to list 10 things that I like or positive things about me. (taken from scalejunkie)

So here we go:


- When I start something.. I finish it.
- I have a good sense of humor.
- I can make people laugh.
- I'm a leader, not a follower.
- I'm learning to love myself, inside and.. out.
- Excuses are not my friend and over this past month, I've been using them less and less.
- I'm always on time, if not early!
- I used to dread the scale, now I'm learning to embrace it.
- I try to see the good in everyone and I'm less judging of people.
- I have a good sense of who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out who I am on the outside.



So overall, good month. Lost 13 heavy pounds.

Goodbye January.. hello Febuary!

A vent.

Okay, I know this blog is mostly about weight loss, etc.. but I need to take a moment and VENT about people. Most people suck and most people I really don't like. Which brings me to MEN. Most men suck, and if they don't suck.. they're either gay or taken. Which totally sucks for me. I'm not THAT picky, I mean I have to be SOMEWHAT attracted to you.. but anyway. I hate men who tell me they are going to call me and don't. Seriously.. what's the point? I see no harm in telling me straight up that you are NOT going to call, instead of telling me you ARE and never do. Seriously, I'm a straight up girl..I tell it like it is.. SO WHY CANT MOST MEN?

I feel like I'm destined to be alone. I guess it's because I'm fat. I mean my personality is awesome, I guess my fat ass is the thing that is holding me back.. and I guess meeting guys is also kind of hard for me. I work with all women and all my classes are women.. or men with women.

I feel like I'm getting old.. alone. Yes I'm only 22. But seriously, I want to meet someone so bad. I've been single for over a year.... and that's a LONG time. I just want to feel love, to have someone. I guess, I don't know. I guess there is something wrong with me, I'm not good enough.. or I'm not the type you want to date.. but just fuck. I get that a lot too. Ugh.

I give up on men.
They make me depressed.

Overall..

Well! Hi Everyone! I'm doing okay, my wisdom teeth are OUT and the pain is overall gone. However, my left side still hurts a little bit and it's sort of still swollen with a black and blue! I was hoping it went away by now (in time for class) but now it looks like a dirt spot more than a black and blue. LOL.

I'm down to 213.5!! That's 3.5 pounds this week! Down from 226.5 to 213.5 for a total of 13 pounds since January 1st! For a total of WOW. I'm amazed. I ate mostly weight watchers ice cream and noodles this week, because I couldnt eat real food! So I'm amazed I lost at all! But I'm verrrry happy!

Overall I think I'm doing pretty well.. and once I startt adding exercising to the mix I think I will be doing even BETTER. My goal is 10 pounds a month so I'm on track so far!

What about ya'll? How are you guys doing? Hope everyone is having a good week! They're expecting 4-6 inches of snow tonight, BOY DO I HATE SNOW.

I'm miserable.

I got my wisdom teeth removed yesterday.. ALL FOUR!

.....And let's just say I resemble a chipmunk!

I really hope this doesn't screw up my weight loss!

Making me gain!

I haven't been eating much since yesterday, no appetite and well.. can only eat certain things! I've been making milkshakes with Skim milk and 1 point WW fudge sticks. OMG soo good and only 3 points. And sugar free applesauce. Not much else, just chicken noodle soup but less than a cup.

I also notice a black and blue starting to form on my left cheek! I've had ice on my face like the whole day trying to avoid the swelling and brusing...Not attractive.. lol. And the bleeding FINALLY stopped last night. FINALLY!

Let's just pray I can start eating normally by monday because IDK how much longer I can have milkshakes without gaining weight!

Is this normal?

I've been feeling GREAT! I don't know why though maybe it's my change of pace or my different eating habits.. but oh MAN I feel really good!

This week I lost 2.5 pounds! So I'm down to 217! So a total of 9.5 pounds since January 1st! That alone makes me happy too! I feel like I'm on a good pace of loosing..I feel like I'm doing really good and I barely have cravings to cheat and I do get those feelings I chew on a piece of gum or have some fruit/veggies! I'm just so happy. I mean 10 pounds probably isn't noticeable but I just feel a lot better already! I can't imagine how I'll feel once I get down 50 pounds! I go food shopping and go down all the isles.. looking at the labels to things I used to eat.. a lot. And wow I can't believe I ate some of the stuff I did! Now I always look at labels.

But Anyway, Cheers to a good week! Thursday I get my wisdom teeth out.. all four. WOW. I'll probably be in a lot of pain and we'll see what I'll be able to manage to eat.

This week is kinda disappointing.

Only down 1 pound

I've been doing everything right, eatingwise. I havent had much time to work out but I guess I need to add that to the mix in order to see better results. So I've lost a total of 7.5 in two weeks. I guess that's not too bad. We'll see what I can make time for exercise wise. At least I'm sticking to my plan and not going off it, at all. Which is good for my sake because I've said no to quite a few things while going out to eat with friends!

I'm trying the WW points system because it worked before so I'm hoping that it will work again. Why do they keep putting out new plans?! If it's not broke don't fix it!

I had another meeting with the scale..

Tomorrow will be a week since I started my change of eating and life, but I have class early tomorrow so I decided to weigh myself today. I was a bit scared, nervous even. But I did it.

220.0 so that's a loss of 6.5 pounds!

Wow! I don't know, I feel better already by changing what I eat and what I do. I'm honestly feeling really good right now!

But in other news,

I went food shopping yesterday and can I say that it's really sort of annoying to see the "better" food more expensive. But you get what you pay for, so I picked up some snacks to bring me when school starts again. I'm excited to be eating more healthy now, for some reason! I've been eating a lot of fruit. I used to rarely eat fruit or even a salad.

This is a short post, but I've got to scoot off to the Dr's!

The scale has never been my friend.

Well I've never been good friends with my scale, ever really. We have a distant relationship.. I love hate relationship too. I hate it actually. Well I havent weighed myself since I'd say August. Well yesterday was the day I decided to see where I'm actually starting at.. And so. The number I got was a bit higher than I expected but..

226.5

Sigh. Depressing. The highest weight I've ever been in my life. I remember being on a diet over 3 years ago and finally getting to my lowest of 138.5 and couldn't get any lower. I felt like such a fat ass, so imagine what I feel like today. However, I didn't get here overnight, so I shouldn't expect to drop 100 pounds over night. I just can't believe I let myself to get this overweight and never have someone tell me "hey Lisa- you've gained some weight huh?" I think that would of pushed me off the edge to actually look at myself naked in the mirror and want to change what I actually saw. But nope, I get to 226.5 before actually realizing my fat.. short (Only 5'2"!) self needed to stop eating.

Anyway, back onto positive thoughts. Yesterday and today I have ate more healthy than usual. I haven't been snacking as much and if I am snacking, I'm having fruit.. like oranges! I figure I'm going to start gradually rather than a big BAM you can't have anything you like anymore.. you know? Because I've done that before and ended up back where I started. So that isn't any good. So I'm starting slow.. slow and steady wins the race.. right?!..... RIGHT?!

I also haven't exercised.. In..... um... yea YEARS! So I figured I'd also start slow there and work myself up. I decided to break out the old Wii Fit.. To which I've used once in the year I've had it. The fit also decided to let me know that I'm an obese lard ass. However it did give me a good workout.. since I haven't worked out in so long.. Practically walking up the stairs twice is a workout for me. So I did some of the stepping and the running in the park exercises. I did it for an hour.. well I felt it today in my legs! Wowza. But yea, It felt good at the same time as feeling bad getting off my butt and doing something.. is better than laying around. So I figure I'll do that for a little while.. working myself up and then start getting on the treadmill.

Also, today was sort of kinda rough. A few months ago (3!) my teeth started to bother me and figured it was my wisdom teeth deciding to bother me.. (I'm 22, they should of bothered me years ago! Not show up now!!) But so I made an appointment for TODAY (The only time I have off from both school and work) to get them out.. I talked to the nurse or whatever lady in scrubs is over 4 times since those 3 months ago each time she reassured me that all the paper work was complete and ready to go! (I needed medical clearance from my primary doctor) I get there, in the chair.. hooked up to the monitors and they THEN inform me that my primary doctor never gave consent for me to have IV sedation!!!! I was FUMINGGGGG! But needless to say my fuming did not get me anywhere and now I'll have to take time off from work later in the month to have them removed because of THEIR MISTAKE. They couldnt even admit that it was their fault. Assholes!

Anyway, happy new year to you all!